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The Gates of Horn and Ivory

Two Gates the silent House of Sleep adorn; Of polish'd Iv'ry this, that of transparent Horn:
True Visions thro' transparent Horn arise; Thro' polish'd Iv'ry pass deluding Lies.

  1. Umaeril

    Umaeril -o-}}}X{{{-o- Staff Member

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    Wow, good luck with that Vixen. *shakes head*

    I have to get an iron "infusion" that is what they call it. They give me one, takes about 30 min, then I have to go back and do it again 2 weeks later. My iron is low, not sure why.
     
  2. Entervixen

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    My iron is low too, also not sure why as I haven't had a period in years and I eat tons of red meat. But my doctor thinks an ironpill will fix it as it's only slightly low.

    Adding to my list of problems, I'm hoping I'm not developing arthritis in my knees. They hurt all day every day now though, ugh.
     
  3. Liv

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    I was gonna go to the gym tonight and then ended up taking a 2 hour long nap instead. Now it's past midnight and I guess I should try and sleep again (luckily tomorrow is a public holiday) !
     
  4. Umaeril

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    Happy Holiday. ^^ I napped today, after dinner and I never do that, but it was really awesome to do it. xD
     
  5. Entervixen

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    Happy belated birthday Uma!
     
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    Ugh I'm depressed today. We're broke as fuck so no birthday celebration yesterday and nothing for mothers day today. We went out for mothers day yesterday, but the restaurant messed up bad, and it was a shitty day all around. Ugh. I might just go back to bed.
     
  7. Umaeril

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    Thank you Vixen for the b-day wishes, I am sorry to hear yours was not fun. But happy Mother's Day to you. :) You are a precious soul, never doubt it. How is the book writing coming along?
     
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  8. Entervixen

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    Thanks Uma. It really hasn't progressed for a while, my brain meats are too fried at the end of the day to get any real thinking done right now. I mean hell, I keep messing up this one shawl pattern and it's a beginners one lol. Right now I'm finishing up a baby blanket for one of mom's friends who is due middle of next month. Kind of grumpy it was demanded, especially since She s done nothing to help me with the other four she promised to help me with, but it's not a big deal. I might charge her next time though lol.
     
  9. Umaeril

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    Heh, you should charge for your work. :) I understand about the writing. I am editing my husband's novel and it is a pain, I have never done that before and have to always be reading about grammar like when do you put a comma or should I take out some hyphen he put in and also when are there too many adjectives and is whatever he wrote consistent with something he said earlier, jeez what a pain. :curse:
     
  10. Entervixen

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    I have carpal tunnel. And I apparently don't qualify for meds that ACTUALLY help with pain. I'm ready to call it quits. I'm so tired of hurting and no one taking me seriously.
     
  11. Umaeril

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    There are a few different treatements for that, most are expensive. If you can tolerate it try a naproxen twice a day for a limited time, maybe a week, you can get generic cheap. Get a brace and use it. Remember to rest your wrists. I hope you start to feeling better soon.
     
  12. Entervixen

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    I just had to quit taking my anti inflammatory because I had been taking it too long. :( I've been wearing braces at night but I pull them off (sigh.) I was reading on the mayo clinic and the nih.gov site that it's important to keep using your wrists, to just correct how you hold things. So I've been knitting for a little bit, because I don't bend my wrists funny when I do that. But still ugh. And I'm going through another med change, which ISN'T helping. And the pain. Ugh. The extra gabapentin is helping more than I thought it would, but I'm in incredible amounts all day every day and I'm just so tired of it. I looked into a TENS unit, I found a well reviewed one on Amazon for $30, and it's s prime item so free 2 day shipping, but I don't know if we have enough for gas, let alone that. I'm hoping the cats don't need a new bag of food either. Everything just sucks and I don't know what else to do. :(
     
  13. Entervixen

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    You guys are allowed to be upset, but please don't be mad at me for this. I was so upset about basically being told that I'm just to suffer that I did something stupid and took a ton of Tylenol. I'm ok. I was monitored in the hospital until I was ok and sent to a mental health facility and kept for 5 days, though even in the doctors notes I guess she said she felt I was relatively stable, she was just concerned about my lack of pain control. So I had to come up with a pain control plan to be discharged. So I ordered the TENS unit last night as soon as dh got paid last night, and there is a local place that sells CBD bath bombs that will hopefully help. I also need to start buying my own CBD oil, but I don't use a lot during the day so hopefully the small bottle will last for a while. And massage therapy might help, I can look into that. One of the nurses pulled me aside as they were getting ready to let me go and suggested a breast reduction too. I'm jot exactly thrilled about that idea, but if I have to I have to you know? I just feel like that would mutilate my body and I'm really uncomfortable with the thought. But ugh. I'm really sorry guys. I feel terrible about this. I shouldn't have acted on my first impulse. I'm really sorry.
     
  14. edokitty

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    I'm so sorry you are in pain :(

    Before I had my surgery, I had daily pain too. The only time I wasn't noticing some pain was when something else hurt worse (pulled a muscle from lifting tile). Glad you are out of the hospital. It's so frustrating that things that can actually control pain aren't prescribed because the potential for it to be sold or abused in some way. Meanwhile, OTC pain medications aren't useful.
     
  15. Entervixen

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    Thanks. I've amassed a lot of creams and gels that do some good, but I'm mad as fuck because it took a friend to suggest a TENS unit. He s prescribed one but we'll see. But it helps when I can get the pads to sticks.

    I'm the hospitalization front shit hit the fan when I told bff about the state of the house and she came to help clean and talk to my mom, and we found out she's on meth because she went on a 2 day bender and flipped the fuck out because my electrode gel for the TENS unit arrived but she had the mail key. And my sister confirmed it. She also added some stories that make us think she was, if not using directly in front of bug, she was at least in a different room because she called once hours after bugs bedtime, mom was loaded on meth, and talking about how sweet it is bug and her bfs cat were playing. I'm cutting contact. Bug is to not have contact with her. If they happen to be in the same place bug is to not be left alone with her. I'm telling from Tuesday to yesterday it's been literally insane and considering I'm fresh out of the hospital I'm amazed I'm doing as well as I am.
     
  16. edokitty

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    That is so much to deal with. Sounds stressful :(
     
  17. Entervixen

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    It really has been. But now that we're away from her and I have cbd oil now, and that's helping a lot, especially as I find the right dose. We can't be here forever, but we're figuring things out. We'll get through this. It's gonna be trial by freaking inferno, but we'll get through this.

    And I'm never talking to anti mom again and I'm not allowing contact with winry until She is 18 and can make her own choices. And if I waiver, remind me: SHE SMOKED METH IN FRONT OF MY DAUGHTER.
     
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    It's been about 36ish hours since we've heard from mom. Maybe gramma has but I don't want to ask. If this goes on too long though I might have to call for a welfare check because the last thing I told her was she needed to fix her shit and get her life in order if she wanted to see us again. She's not gonna understand, cause meth, but that doesn't mean I automatically stop caring or worrying. She's sick and needs help. She needs either a 12 step program or therapy. She's in therapy, I think it's just a bunch of "but they're being mean to me!" Stuff. Ugh. This shit is whack yo.
     
  19. Entervixen

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    Gramma kicked us out. A friend took us in, but it's temporary due to space. So our last option is to go back down to mom's and try to fix shit. The rest of the family turned on me. Like I will never be welcome again for "lying" and *I'm* the one whose sick and needs help. So I'm never going back and never bringing bug to see them, ever again. Because if they're gonna make us homeless and accuse me of all the stuff they're doing because it breaks their perfect narrative then fuck them, and good luck seeing my daughter again. At least for a long while.
     
  20. Entervixen

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    Mom seems sober and willing to talk things through, so we're gonna go try. Because otherwise we'll have no place to live. So fingers crossed.
     

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